my life forever

                                  Today, 31 of July 2011, i am sick but not so good so i have rest but once i think about the things in school i can't help it but cry. once i remember on Friday 29 of July my friends julia have cry in class at that time i really don't know what to do at all i wish to lent her my shoulder so that she would not feel left out but i am such a failures. but i have been thinking what should i do if my friends once ever cry again what will i do? so i think if i can give up my life so they would not fight and would not cry any more i am willing to give up my life, and if i die i rather they make up together than i will blame myself as i know this is worth.

                               but i also do not want any one to be sad or cry if i had die because it will not be worth so i wish everyone not to be sad or crying that is my motive.

the worse day of my life

Today, 23 july 2011 i have been thinking a lot today as at night my mother suddenly say somethingi feel like crying. which is :

when she say it will be better if she has not born the three of us and say whether she can put us back into her stomach.

This sentence really hurt my heart and i felt like crying than i think surely later when i grow up have work she will treat us differently because maybe she would scared we may not give her the money that we are supposed to.

I feel so sad, i had also wish that i am not in this world because everyone thinks i am a eyesore and this days i feel that i am being left out. I don't want this feeling anymore.

pleasant day for me

                                    I have thought that today might be a unlucky day for me , as i have been very sad and angry because i have dream. It was all about in primary school what was happening, i feel that i need to cry but if i cry my eyes might be sore so i did not cry. after going to school, i feel that i am very sad because my friends aren't getting along. i wish someone would cut me into half and so that the two group of my friends can get a half of me. but no one wanted to cut me into half and i have no ideas how am i going to do. 

                                  But later teachers have been calling us to turn back to talk about the thing that teacher have been giving us the paper that have the question wondering is this a unlucky day for me, but i am wrong i indeed have a very pleasant in my life even though my friends isn't getting along but i will be by my side forever i believes they think so too.